This is going to have nothing to do with survivalism, suburban survival, or urban survival, unless you are talking about money, and we might. I am in sales, started a new job about 16 months ago, and my income basically relies on much of what I sell. To say the company I work for is fragmented internally is an understatement. It is hard to get things done, and makes it hard for me to sell my products and services.
To make a long story short, I have been working on a massive sale over the last 15 months. It is so large the CEO of the company, has basically said, work on this pretty much as your only project until you get the sale. Well, I did. The downside, is that I just brought in the largest sale of my career (7 figures). However, in working on only one sale for the past 15/16 months, I have not been able to supplement my income with commissions. Coincidentally, my money situation has slowly been getting tighter, and tighter, and tighter. It seems both the sale and my financial situation have come to a head at about the same time. The downside, I am traveling this week, my reimbursement check(s) have not come from my past business travels, and money is less than tight, it is near non-existent. Not sure how I am going to get through this week, on the road, but I am a little worried, since my company has not responded to my requests to expedite my reimbursements.
I’m not too sure why I am writing this, other than I think I need to vent, and for the first time in a long time I am worried about not having the funds to do my job.
I won’t get into why my savings has dwindled over the past couple of years. That is a completely different story and would be much better told in person than via the blog. But let me just say, it leaves some speachless, and others saying, “oh…”
I despise being in this position. I despise anyone being in this position, and promised myself I would not let myself get here again, yet here I am. You might be asking, “what about this large sale you just made? Didn’t you make any money?” Yes, yes I did. However, the billing does not start until next year, and I do not earn my commissions until then… Ouch. Sort of squelches being happy about reaching your goals, personal, professional, or achieving the company goals. All I feel like saying is, whatever.
I don’t say this for sympathy, but more for self evaluation of where I need to go going forward. In hindsight, working on the one deal only was a mistake. On the flip side, it allowed me to focus. Live and learn I guess. Take a lesson, never depend on one thing for the result you are looking to achieve… It may bite you before you get to where you are going.